Mumbo Jumbo

It’s been an intense few days on so many different levels. I haven’t been able to write because I haven’t been able to connect with how I am feeling. When I am feeling strong emotions, I need to be able to process them—meaning have time and space to check in with them and see what they are all about. That is what writing has always been for me. I began writing as a way to express my thoughts and feelings. Just like with dance, it began as a way to express my feelings. Now they both are becoming so much more. They are becoming an art form for me…my art.

I still don’t know how I’m feeling and what I’m thinking. I’m a bit baffled … bewildered … confused. I’m just stuck in it, whatever it is. Do we always have to be feeling “something,” a specific “emotion,” or is it possible for us just to be feeling, period. I’m feeling today. I don’t know what emotion it is or if it is just one because I’m experiencing joy, sadness, inspiration, hope, beauty, pain, sorrow…all of it. I feel it all right now, every emotion. That’s what I feel—everything.

Don’t think too much about it right now. Feel it, without judgment, being present—as is. No thoughts. No meanings. No meanings.

Life.

Breath.

Present.

P.S. -- The meeting went very well...needing to process to comment...but went well...